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Breast Cancer

Tomography

My cell phone rings at 7.42 AM. I am already at work.

“Just left you a message at home,” my internist says. “Ignore that one. Just want to tell you the CAT scan was inconclusive. It is nothing to worry about,” he said.” But one should also not ignore it. You understand what I mean? The radiologist being hyper careful and all.”

My internist is setting up a PET scan. He had talked to my oncologist, Dr. Weary “who is on board.”

As soon as I get off the phone with my internist, his  office calls. They need my new insurance information, the PET scan has to be approved before my appointment on Tuesday at 1 PM. “Eat nothing for four hours prior!” I am told.

At home, I go straight to the phone to listen to the message Dr. R. left before he called my cell, the message he told me to ignore and erase.  Like I could.

“R. here. “ (How much training did he have to be able to deliver bad news in a non-threatening, authoritative fashion?) “Looking at the report of the CAT scan, talked to your oncologist and he is on board with what we’re doing.  My radiologist, being super hyper vigilant and obsessive wants us to follow up with a PET scan, don’t know if you ever had one. He spelled it out in a loud, firm voice: P-E-T scan, we want to make sure there is no metabolic activity. (Nicely put, Dr. R., much better than to say we’re checking to see if you have cancer cells that are growing out of control.) “I talked to Weary,” he continued, ” and we really think the little changes in your lung could be the result of radiation.”

Interesting. The “area of concern” is in my lower left lung. I had radiation in my right breast. Besides, aren’t the lungs in your back?

“Dr. Weary has looked at this and is not highly worried,” R. continued, “but agrees that if the radiologist wants this done then we should go ahead and do it. So we will follow up with a PET scan, P-E-T, very similar to the CAT scan but measures metabolic activity, don’t think you have had a PET scan before. It will show if there is any activity in the scarring area which would make it more likely to be a tumor. I hate to leave a voice mail, but I wanted to follow up since the CAT scan was done a few days ago. Jonathan will call and set a time.”

A PET Scan stands for Positron Emission Tomography and it is pretty much only used to check for “abnormal cell activity.” The reason they said that my CAT scan was “inconclusive” must have meant that by just looking they could not tell if my granuloma was benign or malignant.  They had checked the size: small is good but not absolute proof. They had looked at the edges and obviously could not tell for sure if they were smooth or spiculated (smooth is better.) They checked the density: calcified or not?(calcified is better.) They were clueless.  I still needed a PET scan.

I felt like throwing up as I listened to his message over and over again.

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My new internist calls unexpectedly at 10.30 AM to give me feed back from my routine check up from three weeks ago. He is back from vacation and has just sorted through his pile of paperwork.

My blood count looks great. My cholesterol is 208, but only because I have 108 of good cholesterol, so nothing to give another thought. However, the routine x-ray showed a lesion – a granuloma he calls it - on the left lower lung lobe. It is only 8 mm.  Sounds insignificant to me because on the phone with the doctor I am unable to process that 8 mm is almost 1 cm which translates to almost half an inch. And I have no idea what a granuloma is although it sounds a bit more sinister than “lesion.”

“This is most likely,”  my doctor says — and his tone is authoritative and upbeat –  “a scar from old pneumonia.”  Since I had had pneumonia numerous times as a child, I eagerly grasp his straw.

Then my internist asks if I have had any other x-rays in the past year?

“No, I can not recall any chest x-rays.”

“Well,   then I will order a CAT scan, just because my radiologist is so obsessive compulsive.”

I do not blink. I am even cheerful because I know that, what ever is on my lung must come from my old pneumonia.  The word metastasis does not even enter my conscious,  I ask:

“What if it is not from pneumonia? What then?”

“Then you have to see a pulmonary specialist,” he says. “But it is too early for what ifs.”

He hangs up.

His abrupt tone and unwillingness to speculate makes me realize that the lesion could be breast cancer that has spread to the lung.

I look up granuloma on a pulmonary web site:   www.pulmonologychannel.com/spn/types

About 60% are of granulomas are benign,  most are the result of an inflammatory, immune system reaction. It could be pneumonia, tuberculosis, fungus. The other 40% of granulomas, or solitary pulmonary nodule as they are referred to (SPNs) are malignant, three-quarters of which are primary lung cancers, and one-quarter of which are metastases from other parts of the body.

First my blood trains. But  I feel fine, great in fact. I don’t cough. I am not tired.  I immediately push the unthinkable thought away. It has to be a scar from my childhood pneumonia.

Once more I have failed to pick up on this important clue: nurses, assistant, and post cards deliver good news. Doctors deal with the scary stuff.

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